Dennis Rules

dennis_c @ 2009-01-03T13:49:00

2009-01-03T18:50:03Z

" You know I never could fall asleep on a train
All the time dreaming about moving away
Finally awake, I wonder
What if I pulled the emergency brake...?
Doors are still open and I wish they would shut
Then I could stop thinking 'should I jump and run?'
Only on page ten
And I think I gotta start all over again

When the tape slows down it means the battery's dead
May your songs never get stuck out of my head
If I ever fall aleep I remember my dream
Where everybody's there and noody leaves
Where everybody's there and noody leaves

Something below me starts cranking to life
The platform moves backwards until its out of sight
Tracks start to split
Got another ten hours till myh next cigarette
Biked round the city about a billion times
And a few seconds left until I leave it behind
Almost at the end
I close my eyesa nd we fall over the edge

When the tape slows down it means the battery's dead
May your songs never get stuck out of my head
If I ever fall aleep I remember my dream
Where everybody's there and noody leaves
Where everybody's there and noody leaves "

dennis_c @ 2008-08-13T03:39:00

2008-08-13T07:39:09Z

If I ever leave this world alive
I'll thank for all the things you did in my life
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll come back down and sit beside your
feet tonight
Wherever I am you'll always be
More than just a memory
If I ever leave this world alive

If I ever leave this world alive
I'll take on all the sadness
That I left behind
If I ever leave this world alive
The madness that you feel will soon subside
So in a word don't shed a tear
I'll be here when it all gets weird
If I ever leave this world alive

So when in doubt just call my name
Just before you go insane
If I ever leave this world
Hey I may never leave this world
But if I ever leave this world alive

She says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right

She says I'm okay; I'm alright,
Though you have gone from my life
You said that it would,
Now everything should be all right
Yeah should be alright

dennis_c @ 2008-05-14T05:31:00

2008-05-14T09:31:35Z

tomorrow might be the day I die
so I want, or rather must, confide
all these things I did, or did not,
try to hide.
well, if boys are boys and
girls are girls.
then boys and girls
are sometimes confused
and I am confused most all the time.

well let's get one thing right
our friends are good
and their support is great
but the outcome is everything
and that's left to me and you

so if today is that day I dread
then at least it can be said
that we, we did things right.
we wrestled with our sense of pride
and even if it didn't sound like a battle cry.
still we, we did things right.

we hung up our relationships
for everyone to see
then blind interpretations
couldn't say what's right for you or me
and we could find out what we want
and make no apologies
because we couldn't coexist
any other way.

dennis_c @ 2008-04-30T00:56:00

2008-04-30T04:57:15Z

Something is missing.

Commiserating The Celebration

2008-04-14T05:15:19Z

"Our pleasures be joyless, doleful experiences. We seek not life's beauty but cherish its funeral aspects. We crave the (mis)fortunes rich in their non entity and rejoice in celebrating less severe tragedies. In the toil to exist we excrete individuality - whilst captivating internment in cloned identity. Real is The oration of stone possessed emotion. I yearn isolation from this realisation. Reject the elation of blissful tranquility, obsessions they lay with the bleak and sinister. A wealth of treasures be ours to take possession, yet we break bones and gruel to savor simulations. Disciples of the
drabness, devotees of worthlessness, consent to endure the anguish and form only ashes. Real is the oration [etc]. Oh yeah let me go. Let me wander through buildings immense in their desolation. At peace from your catastrophe here with gargoyles as my friends. "

dennis_c @ 2008-03-24T01:45:00

2008-03-24T06:05:37Z

See me, Feel me, Hear me

You just ruin me
Hate me, Forget me, You don't see me
Come on feel my spite

See me, Feel, Hear me
You just fuck me
Hate me, Forget me, You don't see me
Come on feel my spite

Feel me, See me, You hear me
You just ruin me
Forget me, Hate me, You don't see me
Come on feel my spite

Come on suck my spite...

Come on feel my spite...

dennis_c @ 2008-03-20T00:35:00

2008-03-20T04:35:15Z

all the fuck up things....

dennis_c @ 2008-03-12T04:00:00

2008-03-12T08:00:30Z

"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars"

dennis_c @ 2008-02-27T17:54:00

2008-02-27T22:55:18Z

A creature made of sunshine
Her eyes were like the sky
Rabbit howls like something old
As we twitch to a lullaby
The scapel shines in god's sunshine
The Streetlights whisper pain
Down here near the poison stream
Our god has gone insane

She smiles like a child with flowers in her hair
With blood on her hands
Into the sun she stares
She feels it die
I heard her cry

She smiles like a child with flowers in her hair
With blood on her hands
Into the sun she stares
She feels it die
I heard her cry...
Like the scream of the butterfly

Sunshine in the house of flames
She loves it where she gets it
But it's never felt the same
Surgery, in the house of dissection
When your candle burns out..I'll resurrect you
She runs
Through fields of daisies
Yeah, it's just a shame that they eat their own babies
Who cares
Cos the air is free
When you get there will you kiss the dead for me?

There's blood on the moon and the summer is cold
There's love in the room
But baby that's getting old
There's blood on my face sittin' on uhh dead shore
A highway,highway of emptiness and I'm getting bored

There's blood on the moon as we plan our escape
The goddess in bloom
Handcuffed and raped
There's blood in the bathtub baby
Murder the king
There's blood on the moon
There's blood on just about everything

Sunshine in the house of flames
She loves it where she gets it
But it's never felt the same
Surgery, in the house of dissection
When your candle burns out..I'll resurrect you
She runs
Through fields of daisies
Yeah, it's just a shame that they eat their own babies
Who cares
Cos the air is free
When you get there will you kiss the dead for me?

Something cold is forced inside her
A tears spill down her cheek
Stillborn songs of a dead dreamer
Hymn's of a needle freak

With sunlight in her hair she smiles like she don't care
Her dreams of liquid blue
I cut my self again and again to remind myslef of you

She smiles like a child with flowers in her hair
With blood on her hands
Into the sun she stares
She feels it die
I heard her cry...
She smiles like a child with flowers in her hair
With blood on her hands
Into the sun she stares
She feels it die
I heard her cry...
Like the scream of the butterfly
I like the scream of the butterfly

I met an angel with a sawed-off shotgun
Wanted by the FBI
We dropped some acid
Killed our parents
Then we hit the road

I like the scream of the butterfly

dennis_c @ 2007-12-11T13:47:00

2007-12-11T18:48:45Z

The corpse of your god can only rot and grow cold
Now promise me you'll kill me before I get old
I hear you on the telephone
Moaning my doom
A cold woman will kill me in a darkened room
Just enough, a heart attack
Seal up my black body bag
Take me home and hate me, love
Bite the hand of our lost love
Take your time and take your life
Amputate with this dull knife
Heaven's meat is on the stick
Stir my pain with an ice pick
The chain-saw smile of the mortician shines
I still got all my fingers but somewhere I lost my mind
I can smell abortion on you
I can see through
I take the gun out of my mouth and point it at you

versus the world

2007-10-09T04:34:28Z

Today started out amazing. I was felt so happy and unbeatable. But not long after i started working it spiraled into shit. I got stuck putting up with assholes at work tonight (only person there tonight that i can stand was eileen), and i kept getting so much bullshit thrown at me today i was on the verge of quitting.

then is got even worse. Some lady was having a problem with the reciept thing so i was trying to fix it and i felt somebody grab me from behind and it was jackie. It really threw me off guard and i really didnt know how to deal with it. I just remember looking into her eyes and it killed me. I got all manic and i started burning and shit. Then of course bullshit continues the rest of the night, i just wanted to get home and relax but before i even get out of the car my moms asking me to carry a ton of bullshit in.

Now jackies pissed because i talked to her mom on the phone. Just what i need.

"We're just mercenaries in a war against ourselves..."

2007-08-24T04:26:07Z

"And suddenly there was war, we didn't remember it
A long time forgotten, there suddenly was war
And suddenly there was war, our children are dead
Burnt in the ruins that were left by war

This is war

And suddenly there was war, and the mothers they screamed
For revenge and reprisals for another war
And suddenly and suddenly
And suddenly there was war, with spoiling and death
And you fight alone if there's another war

Whole Life Is War and whole life is pain
And you will fight alone in your personal war"

I can feel artillery blasts in my head.

Sentenced - "Killing Me Killing You"

2007-07-31T00:35:49Z

Baby, have you seen, there is a snake in our paradise
A serpent that's wriggling between us
and freezing our feelings to ice

And with each drop of blood we bleed because of this
something so precious dies and it feels it really is...

Killing Me Killing You
Killing all we have
As our loves wither away

Burning Me Burning You
Burning us to ash
Drowning us in a sea of flames

Darling, do you feel, there is a storm coming our way
The burning light between us is already starting to fade
The fire in our hearts is smothered by the rain
and the crimson flame of passion turns into something gray

And with each drop of blood our shattered hearts ever bleed
something so precious dies and is lost eternally

Killing Me Killing You
Killing all we have
As our loves wither away

Burning Me Burning You
Burning us to ash
Drowning us in a sea of flames

Each teardrop from your eyes
makes something inside me die
Each of these days that draws us part
takes a piece from my heart

Kill me kill me kill me again with your love
and chase the storm away
Bring me bring me bring me the end with your love
and haunt the demons away

Killing Me Killing You
Killing all we have
As our loves wither away

Burning Me Burning You
Burning us to ash
Drowning us in a sea of flames

Kill me kill me kill me again with your love
and chase the snake away
Bring me bring me bring me the end with your love
and haunt the serpent away

dennis_c @ 2007-07-27T22:03:00

2007-07-28T02:03:06Z

This weekends going to suck.

dennis_c @ 2007-06-08T21:42:00

2007-06-09T01:43:21Z

blah today SUCKS

dennis_c @ 2007-06-07T23:36:00

2007-06-08T03:41:02Z

I can't remember the last time i took my medicine. I was so busy with senior project i didnt even notice until yesterday. When we where down in the grange i felt distant. Thats one of the old feelings that used to kill me back before i went on the meds. Then this morning, 4 am i went for a walk and i just felt so jittery and light headed, the latter of which is a big sign of withdrawl, my head felt like gelatin.

Right now i just feel...really weighed down, i feel really guilty about god knows what. I feel like i'm doing something wrong and i feel like i'm going to die soon, one of those impending doom kind of feelings.

Hopefully tommorow will be busy enough that i don't feel it, as long as i can get myself out of bed. Hopefully exploring tommorow with matt and lexie works out. Hopefully i can see jackie on saturday, i really hope that her and chrissy don't exclude me from their plans (whatever those may be) cause i still feel like i got jipped last weekend cause of my project and her cousin coming over and all that.

Hopefully i can get past this soon. Its the beginning of summer, im done with school i should be happier than this.

dennis_c @ 2007-06-05T18:53:00

2007-06-05T22:54:11Z

Got a 4 on my senior project! un-fucking-believable

I want to tell you all a little story...

2007-06-04T23:01:52Z

'Cause it makes me warm inside
It's about some friends growing up
And all the things they tried
I'm not talking about staple shit
They went for something more
I guess it was too much dreaming
Too much to hope for
One day something funny happened
But it scared the shit out of me
Their heads went in different directions
And their friendship ceased to be

I'm telling you I want it to work
I dont' like being hurt
Something's not right inside
And I can't always put it aside
What can we do, what can we do?

Try

I guess I make too much shit
Someday we'll look back and laugh

Mr. Present, go away
Come back and fuck with us some other day
Mr. Feelings, run and hide
You have no right to what you feel inside
Motherfuckers, quick to kiss
Talk your shit, but don't fuck with this
All I want to know is
Am I holding on? Am I moving on?
What can we do, what can we do?

Try

Deadboy and the Elephantmen "Ancient Man"

2007-05-17T02:34:42Z

I can smell the churches burning,
like I'm near the fire's melody
And you're moving towards me,
so graciously

Feeling like an ancient man
I got heaven, I got hell in my hand
I got hell in my hand

This radiation spills from my heart
Darkness comes, darkness comes,
And darkness followed by,
And darkness followed by

How sweet it was,
Her teeth against my throat
I'm a ghost gone mad,
And an angel that don't smoke

Feeling like an ancient man
I got heaven, I got hell in my hand
I got hell in my hand

And this radiation spills from my heart
Darkness comes, darkness comes,
And darkness followed by,
And darkness followed by

I seen my reflection in the river in heck
Sister Sky whispered to her mother,
the Earth
Mother Earth,

I envy the night,
for it's absence is the light

dennis_c @ 2007-04-23T00:10:00

2007-04-23T04:10:08Z

So this is life
the normal way
was there a sign
all through the day
I can't find a sense for living
while the people smile and cry
They don't give an damn about me
No, they do not even try
Is there a god or is there a solution
Farewell to you I've made this conclusion
to switch off the pain when my nerves are torn
my bodyic hurts cause it's old and worn
Cancer eats my limbs, intestines and meat
mortal remains kept by mechanical beat
So you can't help me even if you try
you think of me please tell me why
Tell me why
Tell me why is existence so dark for me
Tell me why should I come back to life for free
Tell me why do you want me to get up again
Tell me why should I follow the advice of men

Shit

2007-04-19T03:48:54Z

I had something meaningfull to write in here, but i don't remember what it is.

dennis_c @ 2007-04-07T10:06:00

2007-04-07T14:10:03Z

Weird ass dream. Fore some reason we where living on south street, and we where managing a thirft/department stoething. I hated one of the cashier ladies with puffy old lady hair. I went out one nigfht cause i really wanted beer and after i waded through the south street crowd i got off south onto some other street, and suddenly i was in the worst ghetto/slum/warzone. I heard all this yelling and sirens and gunshots, and cops runing around (reminded me of new years) and i get to varistyand i have to walk right through a drug bust to get into it, but its boarded with cardboard that says something like "closed - all fucked up inside" so i head home and i see a ton of dudes getting busted for drugs and shit. I remember being lost in my parents store, or trying to avoid my parents and the one casher but i dont remember why

dennis_c @ 2007-03-26T00:28:00

2007-03-26T04:28:13Z

there were words of lust
in these arms of the stranger
and there in silence though were words of no milder
so in thinking of that madness
that ravage the thoughts
in the loneliest of hours

I resist without control

the demand I get from excellence
the void I felt from answering
not only an addition
it generated need
in these endless nights of freezing
my weight on the other side

I resist without control
feel the thorns of uncontrol

claws that set in sleeps december
let loose on the verge
talked to me as strangers once did
the tone was set for winter

sweet uncontrol
beyond proportion
into the night
so strike me deeper

I resist without control
feel the thorns of uncontrol

the death that craved no life
now ended
in return
drifting uncontrolably
within the night

dennis_c @ 2007-03-23T01:25:00

2007-03-23T05:26:23Z

I have no clue what to do about tommorow.

dennis_c @ 2007-03-14T00:53:00

2007-03-14T04:53:19Z

I lie in your soothing arms, Hypnos
your garmet alive with your song
I lie in your soothing arms, Hypnos

Steep the spiral to your far abode,
in the wake of slumber, on visions I rode
and fell like history through the chasm of ages
into the charged, forbidden zones

How I have searched
through a million worlds and faces
yet unaware, I have not found
my own true face, traceless and profound

So, find me in these grandiose halls
where long ago summers eternally fall
and tune the strings of truthful longing
to the frozen music of gods

Hypnagonia's lucid horizons
play with the yearning I've quelled
as I strike towrads the Pantheon
and what therein is held